Your names a reminder of a blues man who's already gone....I want nothing more than the life I was promised when I gave birth to you

I can't even tell you how much it hurts feelings like I gave up your space. I know your sisters need it to but disrupting it kills me. I have lived in a blind state, acting like it never happen but I would do absolutely anything to have you. I can't explain how much you mean to me and how much I miss you

Yelling at the sky

Screaming at the world

Baby, why'd you go away?

You're still my world!

Holding on too tight

Head up in the clouds

Heaven only knows

Where you are now

How do I love

How do I love again?

How do I trust

How do I trust again?

I stay up all night

Tell myself I'm alright

Baby, you're just harder to see than most

I put the record on

Wait 'til I hear our song

Every night I'm dancing with your ghost

Every night I'm dancing with your ghost

Never got the chance

To say a last goodbye

I gotta move on

But it hurts to try

I got videos from Sonja last night. To see you smiling and laughing makes me happy and so sad at the same time. Your laughter was contagious and could fill any room. Oh my baby how it hurts my soul more and more with every second that ticks by without you with me

I love you my baby so much

I live somewhere between the pain of your death and the joy of your life

I miss you. So many walls I have up to protect myself from ever having to feel my heart shatter again that I feel I'm not able to love the same anymore

Thinking of you so much. You're always on my mind but you have been weighing on my mind heavy lately. I wish I would know what you'd like right now... how your voice would sound as you're growing... you laugh change.... how tall you'd be... what kind of brother you'd be .... I miss you my beautiful baby boy

I can't describe what it felt like.

It was excruciating and yet, I felt numb. My heart screamed in pain and yet, there was complete silence.

I can't quite put it into words but I know this, I died and yet, I live.

- Phoenix Mode

I wish I could hold you, hear you, see you, feel you. My heart, my baby, I miss you sooo much. I can't wait till I can find out if seeing you again is an option. I feel like I'm wasting time I could have with you but I have your sister who needs me to. Hopefully I can see you again one day, until then, I love you more than you'll ever know

I love you, I miss you, it's getting harder to be without you

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You always have been my shining star baby.

"and they can't understandwhat hurts more, missing the other person or pretending not to"

"It is absolutely terrifying the kind of deep suffering the happiest looking people are able to hide inside"

I miss you baby I do very much. I'm broken without you. I want my heart to mend but how do you fix a broken heart when you don't even have all the pieces. I still need you.

"Said goodbye, turned around and you were gone, gone, gone. Faded into the setting sun, you slipped away. But I won’t cry (yes I do, all the time) because I know I'll never be lonely. For you are the stars to me, you are the light I follow. I will See you again, this is not where it ends. I will carry you with me, till I see you again." I miss you my baby boy

I still miss you... It still hasn't got any easier to get by. My heart hurts and breaks for you so much. I hate watching your little sister play alone. How much she loved you and wanted to help you get better to play with you like she use to. I long to hear you laughing together and fighting. My baby I miss you so much

I want to stop time! I want to stop the days from being crossed off the calendar! It's coming up to soon and I don't think I can handle it! I miss you, I miss you, I miss you!!!!!!

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My baby. My heart is so heavy. I'm hurting. I miss you

So much has changed. I know you loved nothing more than your family and you would be so sad to see what we have been to each other. We are trying, it's hard to see through our broken hearts.

Baby I love you, baby I need you, baby you ain't got to prove to me you're some kinda macho man. You wasted so much of your life fighting through the dark nights let me shine a little love light down on my blues man

I've been missing you so so much lately and it hurts so bad

i miss you so much and every day is always so quiet without you, sissy loves you so much and always will, im sorry that i couldnt be with you more and im so glad that you held on to say goodbye to me, i need you bubba.

This wasn't the way it was supposed to be...I miss you baby. Sorry I couldn't give you a better 1st "heavenly" birthday while my heart is in hell without you.

Momma is asking you to please help me through this. I need your strength and I need you to see me through. I feel like my heart is going to explode I need you with me so bad

I miss you so much Jesco. I wish you were with us everyday. I wish I had your strength and I wish I could find the joy in the worst things like you always did. It would make the heart break a little easier

My heart will forever be with you my baby

Auntie loves you so much buddy I'm gonna miss our choke hold hugs and our lovey lovey head rubs fly high my sweet sweet nephew until we are together again

His smile was very contagious and he was a very loving boy

This little boy had my heart from the day he was born. His laughter, his eyes, how he learned things so fast and did it with a vengeance. He was so determine to help and to get it down. All the pictures and videos that James and Kalina shared with me throughout his years. He was a very amazing lil man with a heart bigger than most. He fought so hard and overcame so many obstacles. I loved watching him grow and become who he was. I have a hole in my heart and I will forever miss him. He will never be forgotten. He was a trooper to the end. Love you Jesco...Grandma Terri <3

Jesco was a fighter and very strong willed. He taught me that no matter how bad things might be you need to keep trying and focus on the things that make you happy even if no one else understands. Love you so much little buddy!

~Aunt Jeannie~

Im gonna miss him beating on the front stove cuz he loved the noise so much

Jescos eyes were so beautiful they just sucked you right in his laugh was one of my favorites and he had such a beautiful soul. Auntie loves you buddy.

Jesco was a very amazing kid. He brought so much happiness into life. His smile was so contagious and he always stayed positive. He will forever be missed and never forgotten. Always in our hearts Jesco <3